The God Who Sees Me

It is the very last day of 2013! Where did this last year disappear to?

I find myself a bit reflective upon the days gone by, and hopeful toward days that lay ahead in the new year.

What else would you expect to read on December 31st?

There is a message upon my heart today; a message of hope and encouragement taken from the story of Hagar (Genesis 16).

Hagar was a female Egyptian servant to Abram and Sarai who was “given” to Abram by barren Sarai in hopes of producing a son; but once Hagar conceived, Sarai’s heart became friends with contempt and treated Hagar harshly.

So Hagar ran away; she was pregnant and alone. Genesis 16 records that the angel of the Lord found her (does this suggest that God must have been pursuing her?) by a “spring of water in the wilderness” (vs.7).

It was from this place of rejection, isolation and hurt that Hagar gave God the name that we now know Him by, “EL ROI”.

The Hebrew meaning? “You are the God who sees me”.

O how I love this name of God! It is one of the many of His names that hold testimony of His character and divine love for each of us.

To bring this into a personal context I would like to share a little story with you.

On Christmas day I was drawing and colouring pictures with my granddaughter Eilia. She had just received a small suitcase of markers, crayons, pencil crayons and paint for Christmas so we decided to check them all out and have some fun.

I was soon lost on my own page with drawing palm trees and sunshine and so failed to notice what her little hands were pumping out until she said to me, “Nana look at what I did!”

As I looked at her paper, by jaw dropped and my heart leaped…there on her 8 by 10 piece of paper was the word “ROI”, written with red marker and in HUGE block caps! Drawn over the word was a huge rainbow with colours of green, purple, blue, green, yellow and red.

O how I wish I knew how to attach this picture to this blog today, believe me that as I am writing it is propped against my lamp in front of me!

My granddaughter is only four years old! I knew that only God could have inspired such praise and encouragement out of her little heart; she had no clue what she had just drawn! Needless to say (but I will anyway) I explained to her that she had just written out one of God’s names.

I believe this name of God holds power, hope and a promise for each of us this last day of 2013.

Wherever you are, whatever life circumstance you find yourself in, know that GOD SEES YOU! You are not alone…EVER!!

I encourage you to ask God to reveal Himself this new year through one of His many names…as you know, He delights to reveal WHO He IS!!

If He would use a four-year old who barely knows how to write her own name to write one of His names, to speak to me, will He not also do that for everyone who asks?

In the words of Hagar: ” Truly here I have seen Him who looks after me” (Genesis 16:13).


Mary Was Ready…Are You?

I was listening to Perry Como’s narration of the Christmas story recently.

I have listened to this narration every Christmas since I was a child, but this week I heard it differently, maybe it was because I was listening differently.

I entered into this story before Jesus was born…

I imagined myself riding on a donkey as a woman, just like Mary; with knowledge that within my womb the Savior and long-awaited Messiah was growing, and that I would give birth to a KING! I would know that I was a woman of purity, a virgin, but had willingly accepted God’s assignment which included the temporary tainting of my reputation! O the humiliation!

I had a smack down moment as I embraced my humanity in these similar circumstances… HOW did Mary walk this road???

She BELIEVED, she trusted, and she was humble.

I love what Elizabeth said to Mary in Luke’s gospel:

“…Blessed is she who BELIEVED that there WOULD BE a fulfillment of what was spoken to her from the Lord” (Luke 1:45).

Luke records Mary’s song beginning in verse 46:

“And Mary said, My soul magnifies the Lord, and my spirit rejoices in God my Savior, for He has looked upon the humble estate of His servant…”

“the humble estate”; God chose a woman of humility to host His son for us; it could not have been otherwise! God was setting the stage for every Jesus lover to follow…”God opposes the proud, but gives grace to the humble.”(James 4:6); And I believe as well that God was giving us a powerful, life altering example of what it means to TRUST Him fully, even in the absence of tangible evidence.

Think about it with me for a moment; Mary’s body would not have had any tangibility of pregnancy even to her for at least three months and yet she trusted the words of God.

How does this apply to us today? Will we be found trusting the Father completely and absolutely with everything that concerns us?

What about your life calling? Is your life surrendered under the covering of Jesus great Name?

If God approached you today with a calling or assignment, would you be found ready? Would you be found willing even if it meant you might appear to be a fool? Would you, will you trust in a promise that has not yet been fulfilled?

Mary, the mother of Jesus our Savior, is an example of a life found ready for the Master’s voice.

Mary’s response was recorded for us: “Behold, I am the servant of the Lord: let it be to me according to your word” (Luke 1:38).

May our response be the same, would you really want it to be otherwise?

Merry Christmas!

I do not know how I will ever thank my daughter Joelle for the hours of work she gave to giving life to my book; without her work this would not have become a reality! Thank you my dear daughter!

I must thank my other daughter Karlene as well as she encouraged me and publicized on facebook; and my son Tim who kept encouraging me to keep going and that he couldn’t wait to read it; my mother’s heart is BURSTING from their love! I am so blessed!

I thank my dear husband who patiently listened to me talk about this for years; I finally did it honey!!

I admit that tonight I am overwhelmed by the flurry of interest in the book; I did not expect this and I am feeling nervous as a result!

I wrote for my King, Elohim; I wrote to share my journey in and through trial and testing, all the while asking God to bless and use my weaknesses to produce hope, and desire for more of Him.

Thank you to all of you…I am sincerely humbled by your support and encouragement!!

If you choose to read the book, know that I have been praying for you already; God knows who you are and where you are.

Merry Christmas to all of you!